This sucks..

I'm tired, like seriously tired both physically and mentally.

I have to wake up in time before my N Lvls, i don't wanna be the last anymore.
No more rubbish for me and also, it's time for me to move on and stop having false hopes of you.
Hopes therefore disappointment, no wonder i can never be happy.
I want my friends to stop asking me why i'm stoning away without even realising it.
I was obsessed even though it was a pathetic short period of time tgt with you.
I almost did moved until you came back and i wasn't able to withstand it all over again.
But for myself, for my future, i've decided to wake up my mind and stop being sloppy, get back on my feet and start working for my exam.

I know i can be better than this.
This is quite silly as i know i can make myself happier but i always choose not to.
Sometimes i think god is deliberately trying to make life and moving extra difficult as i actually see you every night in my dream (for the 3rd day already)
Amazing and yes, what the fuck?

After all, this was merely just a child's play/game for you.
Something we both chose but unfortunately you were not able to keep your promise.
Or maybe it was a minute of entertainment?

But seriously... i'm only 16, i have SO MUCH MORE THINGS TO DO.

I'm freaking sleepy but have decided to make a emo post before i go to bed.
Gudnight people** and my maid's waking up now.