2009.
All this build up to a great leap, and i didn't fall or fly.
Instead i found myself back on the edge of the cliff, blinking, wondering if i'd ever jumped at all.
2009 was after all a year, filled with no achievements but disappointment.
I tried many new things but none of it came with any outcome.
Of course, throughout all the drama, i got to learn and gained none other than experiences.
I also learned that earning another chance wasn't easy, earning back the trust was a million times more tough.
But i had to try, even if it means pushing myself way too hard.
I failed myself, failed others and especially those who mean so much to me.
But none of them ever gave up on me, so i shouldn't even be giving up on myself.
I believe this 2010, i will make a better me out of myself.
Because i believe we can never learn to be strong if the only thing in this world is joy, therefore, welcome bullshit once in a while.
Life's a series of pull backs and forths. You want to do one thing, but you're bound to do something else. You take things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.
I just think that sometime, things are meant to be broken, imperfect and chaotic.
It's the universe's way of providing contrast.
Just like having a few holes in the road, just like the way life is.
What we do doesn't define what we are, what defines us is how well we rise after falling.
I hope i would make something out of this 2010.
I have is 364 days left to do it.
I'm sure i can.
Because i know after all the ups and downs, i always have my beloved ones still close to my heart.
And i know they'll always be there.
And also to my most special baby, you're unmistakably my deepest love & i'll never forget that.
Though as the near future will pass upon us, a piece of you will always remain with me.
You'll always be a part of me, because you unknowingly showed me that all i ever want, is simply you.
You're my strongest source of energy to live life each day, to work towards my goal.
You're the reason and answer to the smile on my face.
I wish you best of luck this 2010, to stay away from troubles and to overcome all problems.
I believe in you.
And believe me, i'm with you, i'm always here, right at a place so close to you.
I'm living inside your little heart (:
Ps: I miss you terribly ): Am so glad i'm gna spend the first day of 2010 with you tomorrow (:
WAH THIS POST MAKE ME SEH.
NEED TO SLEEP NOW.
DA JIA WAN AN!
